Lucidaemon

Filling you with constant fear Always here Forever chasing you, my dear I’m always there, but I don't care Making you feel much despair I’m all around, I make no sound Often leaving you bed-bound Head aching, heart breaking Chilling to the point you're shaking Validation-seeking, needing space All while putting on your “happy" face Broken soul, twisted grin Feel it crawling in your skin Hurt and bleeding, scars are open Cold and lonely, damaged, broken Mind-numbing, clout-chaser You're a loser, liar, poser, faker Tormented mind, with a fake smile It's been this way for quite a while Heart racing, mind chasing Spacing out, emotional displacing Paranoia, fear, delusion Everything is all just an illusion Shivers running down your spine Get ready now, it's almost time Wasted life, waste of space No one cares until you're gone without a trace

With silent screams You stole my dreams; Nothing that gleams Is what it seems... The seams; It may be you who fans the flame, But you see, I am the one who stokes the fires, Illuminating funeral pyres, Setting the allure ablaze... You are my weakness... My one true thrill, And it is you Alone; Who knows What is Hidden In my heart... When every beautiful word Is already written, How can I ever possibly convey The depths; Emeraldine jewels That lurk in shadows, Beyond the veil Of pale moonlight and... Sin; I've never felt something so terrible, And so beautiful...

subtly but in a mild panic i catch my hand as it drifts towards you - intercept it in mid-flight moments before it reaches your shoulder, before i make the mistake of touching you in an ingrained gesture of affection. with your back towards me, you don't notice how i begin to break the pattern, break yet another line of communication. the way a path untravelled re-fills with forest, this too will dissolve. i hope you don't notice until you look back one day and see that it's already gone, that there's nothing left to see. until then i hope you remain oblivious to these inevitable slips, to these muscle memories of love.